Sunday, May 8, 2011

things are just starting

Lately everytime I sleep I dream.

Long, detailed dreams. Dreams where I climb staircases in St. John the Baptist cathedrals. I shower and accidentally tear chunks of my hair off with a dull razor and watch the narrow shower overfill. Dreams where I drink fruity red punch and do needlework at relief society and hear sounds from a retired violin. Dreams where I dodge people and get harassed by a disgruntled ginger who is stronger than I am. I scream. I punch. I kick.
Dreams where I car-jack a topless red drag racer and add strangers on Facebook.

I remember them all.

"The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I'm trying to change that, and I hope you are too. By dreaming, every day. Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds. Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced, ever. So whatever you do, don't be bored, this is absolutely the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive. And things are just starting.."
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Thursday, May 5, 2011


This is my favorite leaf.
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Tuesday, May 3, 2011

an escort to the food bowl

Dear blog-no-one-reads,

I don't want a part time job.
I said it.

I don't want to take portraits.
I said that too.

I don't want to exercise, and stop snacking so I can fit in a wedding dress I don't actually love.

I bought my temple dress today. I absolutely love it. I'm glad Mom and I went to all the other dress stores, so I could appreciate the one I fell in love with at the first store.
If you're getting married in the temple, and you haven't gone temple dress shopping,
take heed of this:

black lacy underwear is great, but its not something you wear to White Elegance.
That's all.

Glee wasn't that good today.
I mean, it was good, but I feel like I spent more time skipping commercials than I did actually watching the show. srsly?

I have to make my bridal shower invitations.
I know its not my job since I'm the bride,
but I want them to look good.

I'm very frustrated with Elegant Wedding Announcements
for taking 8YEARS to make my invitations.

Dear M.,
Are they done yet? Are they done yet? Are they done yet?
Love Tab.

I don't want to call bishop and harrass him about not getting me a job at Zions yet.
I know Clay talked to bishop about it and got a call the next day,
but I am not Clay.
If I was Clay, I'd be going to Australia.

Speaking of Australia, Taylor and I went to IKEA today.
I was actually a lot of fun. We were able to get a pretty good idea of the other's expectations and opinions about kitchens and living rooms and stuff for the future.

I was also pretty excited when he liked a set of dishes that weren't as boring as the back of my hand.
They were white, with a purple pollen-like design on them.
We'll see :)

I wish my cat liked me.
Yep. The gorgeous one I bought at Pet Planet with the spots.
She used to let me carry her around and take her on drives,
now she just growls at me and bites me and eats.

I get to leave her behind in the move anyway.

I'm actually pretty sad to ditch Kairi though. We had a moment on the couch during Glee that was nice.
She's getting old.. :/

I love babysitting.
It's pretty good pay and I have a great time. I don't even mind doing the dishes.

I want to sell prints.
I know, I know, it's a lost cause, no one makes prints anymore.
but I feel like it's not quite as lost as film photography.
I have some friends that are like, "YEaHHA i sO Wanna geT into Film Photyoagraphy!1 woudlh't that be so swee3t???"
and I'm like,

Film is dead.
Do not resusitate.

When the world comes to an end and all the internet towers crash and power goes out and the concept of a digital photograph is obsolete,
then yeah, film photography is whatever,

but how many people will be so stoked they have prints!
prints by Tab, it'll be great!

So that's my story.

I also have a really great idea about a quilt.
I'd talk about it, but I'm really selfish when it comes to my great ideas.
The last thing I need is idea hackers.

Today was good. I don't know why I'm so cranky.
Maybe because this week I have acne.
Thanks, birth control.

We'll get through this.

Anyone know of a company in need of product photography?
Cause I love taking pictures of things.